I grew up in Colorado and my mom introduced me to the book The Secret and the law of attraction when I was 10 years old. When I was 11, I attended the Landmark Forum for young adults. From these experiences, I got a knowing in my bones that I could have anything and everything. I got the formula for creation. Even though my family was super poor (my parents were divorced and my mom was raising me and my sister as a single mother) and we were fighting all the time, I knew I had something that the other kids didn’t. 

There was this moment when my sister and I wanted to kill ourselves. We wanted to end our lives. We both just wanted out, and I knew that this world was insane, and I didn’t want to be here. Even so, there was something in me where I knew I was here for a greater purpose, a greater, reason, to create something. I knew I had something in my knowing to share with people, and that was my one reason for living. I couldn’t kill myself because I knew I needed to stay here. I fucking knew it, and I still do.

 I can see myself as an 11-year-old standing in my room, making that cognitive choice, just as I am telling you it now, to not end my life. At 14, I moved to California on my own. I can’t even remember who paid for my plane ticket, but I ended up living with my grandma and grandpa. I wanted parents, but little did I know, my grandparents were functioning from a whole other generation. This did not help the fact that all I wanted to do was fit in and be cool and popular, just like everyone else.

I found little things here and there, like Buddhism (which I called booty-ism) and meditation. I started looking into crystals and astrology. I sought out therapy because I just wanted someone sane to talk to. And then at a Goddess Unleashed event in San Diego in 2014, I found the Access tools. I was introduced to the Bars, ‘question,’ and the clearing statement. I met people there who had also taken the Landmark Forum and had read ‘The Secret,’ It was like finding my people! But what spoke to me the most were the tools of Access Consciousness.

 I started getting my Bars run as often as I could for 8 months. I had been diagnosed with PTSD, and when I went back for my annual psychiatric evaluation, the physician was listing out my triggers. I literally had no idea what she was talking about. Having had gotten my Bars run for that time, I literally forgot that I was diagnosed with PTSD! My physician looked at me like I was crazy.

Since that moment and having experienced the freedom of not being bound to my past, and knowing such simple tools could create that, I knew that if they worked for me, they could work for anyone else. Anybody that is stuck with anything can ask a question, use the clearing statement, and be happy. No one has to be bound by their past. It is that simple. When I found the Access tools, I knew it worked. Everything I had tried before that has been and is still such a gift to my life. I am still grateful for all of it, but the reason I facilitate the Access tools is because they work and they work fast. So let’s go.